Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met~ Anonymous
As a child, I never dreamed about my wedding like a lot of little girls do. I always knew I would find my soul mate, but it wasn’t something I really thought of, until I met him.
I met him at 23, fell in love with him by 24 and at 25, he broke my heart.
In the early stages of our relationship, I knew right away that I had found him- the one person on this Earth for me. I can’t tell you how I knew, but something felt so right. It took me seven months to become his girlfriend and I felt in my heart, this was it. This was the man I would spend the rest of my life with, raise the children I never wanted to have with, have the house, dog and family with.
So what happened to the dream we both had? He lost his job and drifted away. He wanted to deal with this part of his life on his own, to not have me worry about him, us and the future. He left and broke my heart.
He was my first true love, the love of my life that let me go. It took me many months to realize my life and future were not over. During these months of tears and heartache, I realized a lot, and for this I am thankful to him.
I learned that I love myself more than ever. I love my body, my curly hair, my ambition and strength. I love myself for the woman I have become. I know that I’m an amazing person and I would never change anything about myself. This break-up has given me strength to conquer my dreams and to take on everything this world has to offer.
This break-up has also made me realize that I still love him and I still believe in that dream and our future more than ever. As much as I should run the other way because he broke my heart, I just can’t do it yet. I still believe when the time is right, our paths will cross again.
Time will tell if what I believe in my heart will come true, but until then, I’m focused on me and maintaining the strength I discovered during one of the hardest times in my life. http://www.anewmode.com/